Ah, it’s a new year and with starting a new year comes people making plans or goals on how they want to better themselves. They look back at the past year and say whether it did good to them or whether it did poorly, they swear that this year is “their year” and that nothing but good will come their way. I would lke to say that I have never been a big “new year, new me” person. I pretty much accept who I am and what I will become in the next year. I try not to dwell on the past but to always try to look on the future and what it may hold. However, I fall more often than I would like to admit on that but who doesn’t? This year though I want to make goals, not because I had a bad year last year and I am trying to turn my luck around but because I feel as if I am stagnant. I want to move forward, not only in my personal life but in my spiritual life and in my relationships. So, I thought I would start by getting back in the groove of my blog and let y’all in on my plans. That way you can also hold me accountable if I fail.
First off, and this is probably the most important one, I want to pray more and study more of Gods word. I have been lacking the fire I once had for my relationship with God and I am ashamed. I have nothing or no one to blame for my unfaithfulness but myself but I am fighting for it back. You never realize what the devil can do until you let your guard down and he slips in without you realizing until it is almost too late. This is one change that needs to happen to save myself from becoming someone who is bitter, lazy, ungrateful, selfish, unworthy, crass, & hateful. Just the thought of being that person makes me sad. I pray that as I run back to the arms of God with my heart in my hands that He will take every unclean and unholy thing out and replace it with everything that is clean and holy to his name.
My second goal is to try new things, as in food wise, and drink more water. I NEVER, and I mean never, try new foods. wherever we go to eat it is always at the same places and I always order the same thing. My husband is always teasing me because I have always said I am a picky eater but I never even try and taste anything. I also NEVER drink water. It is always Dr. Pepper or some other form of carbonated beverage. I don’t want to go as far as cutting it completely out because I know I will fail and then go right back to not drinking water at all so, my goal is to atleast try and drink more and go from there.
I love to write and read but the last few years I have been doing very little of both. I pretty much watch tv or scroll through social media during my free time and it is bugging me. This is why I am starting to blog again. I may not have anything important to say or have a lot of followers but I enjoy it. This also goes along with my other goal and that is to not be so involved with social media as much (facebook, instagram, & snapchat). I want to be able to keep those things because I do see the benefits in having them, I really enjoy seeing my friends and families pictures and what is going on in their lives and I do have a lot of family around the U.S. But, I have caught myself really wasting a lot of time just staring at my phone for nothing important. I don’t want to become a mom who misses out because she chose to look down rather than at her children.
I have been having to bounce myself back to this one alot of times and I am having to do it again and that is to stop worrying about what others think or feel about decisions I make in my life. Some call it being a pushover, and that is pretty much correct. Anytime someone is unhappy with something I try and fix it, or change it in some way that they can be happy and most of the time its something I never wanted to happen. I make decions and let others’ opinions change my mind because I am so worried of what they think about me. It is horrible to admit but it’s the truth. It hurts me to know that someone dislikes me, or is unhappy with me. I mean eats me up inside and I wish I knew why. I wish I wasn’t that way. So, today I am telling myself that no longer will I worry about what others think. That I will do what I think is best for me and my family and not to let others’ opinions effect my decision.
I would also like to stop procrastinating. I have gotten so bad at just letting things get piled up so high that it takes so much time to get done that I miss out on spending quality time with my children and relaxing. It is so hard to not have an all day lazy day with the kids and watch nothing but netflix and eat nothing but junk food and not change out of you pajamas. If I could do one or two things a day, and finish then I woudnt stress and worry that nothing is getting done and it wont take up so much time. I do realize almost every mom has this problem whether you work or stay home its always hard to get the right schedule for your family. It’s so annoying.
My last goal is to try and do a good deed every month. Not because I want to feel good about myself or to boast to others about what I did but because I know how good it feels to be blessed with a good deed and I want to be able to bless others. I also want to teach my children that giving to others is better than recieving. It doesn’t have to be alot or extravagant but it has to come from the heart. Now, I don’t know who it will be whether it will be in my family or a complete stranger but I know God will put this person on my heart every month and I am so excited to see how He will use me.
I really hope I complete all these goals but if I don’t I just want to know that I did complete getting closer with God. That is all that matters. In closing, I hope you all have a blessed year and that you complete all of your goals you set for yourself and that God blesses you all.